"The heart has its reasons..."

There are times when I wonder what I'm here for.

Am I here to make someone happy? Am I too selfish to dedicate myself to the people I love? To a cause? Here are the thoughts in my head. I just feel so empty and sad, and tired, and I want to give up...
Don't get me wrong, I know I live a privileged life, with all the comfort you can imagine, but my inner battles and demons are too numerous to count, and sometimes I really feel like giving up.
It's wrong and I know there are no "real" reasons for me to feel this way, but here are the thoughts in my head. I just feel like I'm all alone. Even when I talk to my closest friends, it's like there's some kind of border, a barrier they can't cross, things they can't understand no matter how hard I try to explain.



So hours tic by...
and my heart has its own reasons that reason itself ignore.

 Bird by U&Me Blue

Sugar Rush

It's the third week without HM attack!!!

The new treatment seems to be the right one. I can do almost anything I want and that means going back to work. It's really like coming out of prison and be free again.
I can have projects again -albeit small- but still, it counts, right?
So the next step should be: get a new job and at long last have my own appartment. It's time for me to stand on my own again.